Module 1: Understanding Why
This module aims to help you explore and gain understanding of the following:
- Your current online sexual behaviours
- How your sexual behaviour progressed into offending behaviour
- Your motivations for this
- Patterns and trends with your current use of internet pornography and accessing of illegal images
Motivation for accessing sexual images of children
If you are concerned that you may access sexual images of a child or have already done so and want to stop this behaviour it is important that you learn as much about yourself and your behaviour as possible. The first step in doing this is to understand why you were accessing the images.
The list below offers some common motivations we hear from people who have accessed sexual images of children:
- Low self-esteem
- Desensitising to legal adult pornography
- Sexual gratification
- No sex life / decreased sex life
- Attraction to children
- ‘Buzz’ / risk taking
- Relationship problems
- Sex addiction
Identify your current level of knowledge and understanding around the following aspects of how you use illegal images (1 = very little knowledge; 2 = some understanding; 3 = secure understanding).
|I have a clear and detailed understanding of my sexual behaviour and the internet.
|I can identify key events in my life that influenced me to engage in more risky sexual behaviour over time.
|I understand how I came to first access sexual images of children on the internet.
|I am aware of my patterns of internet usage and when I am most likely to access illegal content.
If you have scored yourself with 1 or 2 in any of the above columns, this section will be really helpful for you to increase your knowledge around why you might be accessing sexual images of children online.
You might already have some understanding of why you have been or are tempted to access images of children and you might have identified with some of the motivations listed above. However, sometimes it can be more difficult to understand our behaviour. We are going to show you two ways you can use to improve your understanding.
The first is to think about when you go on-line and what mood you are in.
Below is a diary for you to complete which will help you think about these and help you identify patterns of behaviour.